Im 28 years old and six weeks ago today I had my first major surgery an emergency c-section to delivery our first child which was a boy. This was my first pregnancy and I must say it was a good pregnancy beside the first four months of morning sickness which was a pain in the butt, and at one point I would cry in a corner and tell my husband that i couldn't do it. Once I got over that part it was fine and everything was smooth, and I had the perfect obgyn who we love. As I was carrying our son and as it got closer to my due date my biggest fear was a c section, and how my husband was helping me have a healthy pregnancy which I did, and was by my side every step of the way, and every doctor appointment. Having a healthy pregnancy, people telling me I was not going to have a c section, I stop thinking about it and I kept praying about it and left it in God hands. Well due date came and gone, we walked into hospital Thursday, September 4 at 9pm to be induced. Before our due date/schedule date to be induced came I finally mention as much as I didn't want to was a c section to my husband, and we sat down and accepted the fact that a csection may happen but to make sure not to shut it out completely and we didn't. We talk about it, we left it in God hands, than the time came we went to the hospital to be induced, and the process started slowly but surely and soon we will welcome our son and soon we were going to be first time parents. Oh my the process was going great I was so excited because I knew I was going to give birth natural well with drugs of course...lol, and it happen doctor broke my water Friday morning September 5th, than about 1:00pm baby heart rate disappear and my blood pressure was high....my worst fear came true and as much as I didn't want to hear it doctor said emergency csection was going to happen and he was here at 2:09pm September 5th.
Csection every mothers fear! All kinds of questions, worries and other things just going crazy in my head! I had our son Friday went home Monday, my husband was off Friday and that week he took more time off from work and short story is he was taking care and helping me with my everything I needed and I'm not use to that, it's usually the other way around but I took the help and let him take care of me even more than normal. You know I would talk to him and tell him I felt at that time a useless wife, because I was the one who cook, clean, and care for him and the tables had turn which I felt bad why hormones, and of course he would tell me that's his job as well. Let me tell you that was hard but I accepted and knew this was not forever.
You know csection was not that bad after a few weeks and now six weeks later I look back at it I had pain and the hardest part was getting out bed at the hospital for the first time, and getting around but I was slowly and my own pace. I also had my moments when I cried and even more when I saw the scar for the first time....and different things were going crazy in my head: my husband will not love me anymore, think I'm not sexy anymore, my body is ugly, and I'm fat but little did I know I was crazy(lol) and I knew I was married to an awesome guy and even more awesome after we had our moment looking at the scar and what he told me....priceless and I will never forget that moment. Than I had a moment with my body and the scar and came to a conclusion that this is my battle scar, my husband appreciate this battle scar because this is how our miracle got here and the way my body looks. This is my body if he loves the way it looks before I had the baby, before I started losing weight, and now after I had our son than I should love it as well and I will....as well as the battle scar if he loves it and is truly thankful for this scar, and will forever remind him why I got this scar, than I will too and we will both thank god also!!!
Well I have few question for you....Did you have a csection? What was your biggest fear/ what were you worry about? Have you accept it? Have you accept the scar and your body after baby?
Please share!
Thanks,
Lauren
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